KL trip with the awesome.

Pictures not in order.

Hanis- the best.

Vinod- awesome friend ever.

Anita- best twin sister ever.

Elina- A counselor.

Kailin- ahlian.

Rosaline.

Muz.

Pictures is still not up but still I want to update something before New year's eve. 2010 has been a hard time with school, family, friends and love. 

I have to say that this year I behaved myself in school and was praised for my good attitude. But sadly to say it did not reflect on my N level. I am disappointed in myself but H always says that I'm smart. Obviously, I'm smarter then him but I don't want to be smarter then him. I want to be smarted then the smartest. Okay, expectation to high, lol! Whatever it is, he never looks down on me and I am not going to give up just like that. I'm going in ite and taking a course together with my best twin sister, then to higher nitec with another course then to poly. H did not want me to attend ite because he is scared, but I'm not going to fool around in ite. I hate ite god damn a lot. Easy to say, things never happen the way I want, never.

I lost a few friends. Might be my fault or the other way but it's okay. I made new friends and gain experience. For that I love my friends because they stayed by me eventho I made the wrong choice. They never gave up on me. Love you all.

Love- I tot everything was going smoothly until the very last. I saw what I did not want to see. I hear what I did not expect to hear. I was treated the way I never tot he will treat me. Say it was a 3year relationship  but to me it is only 2year relationship because the last year you cheated me from the begging. Never I had expected it to be this way, serious. In the end, I forgave you but I am never going to look at you the same way. 

2011 resolution- The day after tomorrow I will lost a friend. A friend who I can do anything. Who I learned many things. Who taught me to moved on but I never will. I loved him but it will never happen because both of us know I can't forget H. V was very nice, really. I always wanted to be treated that way. He never did scold me eventho I was wrong. But some how I need to let him go. He is getting married soon. I'll wish him all the best in future till we meet again. You're forever in my heart. The day after tomorrow there won't be any text/calls from him. On 2011, I would vow to be a good girl and stick to one eventho I might get busted again. I vow to study hard in ite and not be a bad girl. I vow not to do bad things when I enter ite. I promised V that I will change and I will. Watch me change people.

Might not go anywhere for countdown as H is working but he says if he has the time he might bring me out. 

Till here.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE 

Hi, I'm back from KL trip and one word for it. It was awesome. Pictures will be uploaded once I get hold of all the pictures. Btw, Happy belated birthday to my brother and I know this is too late but still, Merry Christmas everyone. Bye.

Tomorrow.

Hi. I'm not satisfied with my N level results, everyone else is except me. I'm stupid, I know. I hate ite but I love the skirt. I want to sit for O's but I know it's impossible. I might not even make it to ite, might just take private school. I'm disappointed in myself despite passing the subject I hate most- maths. I did tried my best, really. I can cry thinking about it. Should stop about my results. 

It's 22nd of December(since it pass 12am alr) and it's my brother's 22nd birthday today. My brother is not home and I don't have a chance to wish him. Might wait up for my brother since I'm wide awake. 

I'm going to kl the day after today and today will be a busy day because I have so much to do. I really want to sleep but I can't. I tried, trust me. I'll be going away for 4 days 3 nights. I will miss everyone especially him. On a   brighter side, I can't wait for shopping. Yesterday was the best night I had. Never had I experience it before. I broke my nails and it is ugly now. I'm sorry for being random. I'll update after I came back from the short trip. Please miss me as much as possible, okay? Bye.

Boring life

There isn't anything much to blog here either, so this will be a short update. Yesterday we( Caca, kimmy, Kak Sheela, Hanis and myself) went to Golden Mile to get the bus ticket. We are taking the bus at 10.30am on 23rd December. From there we headed to Tanjung Rhu, played Hanis Iphone all the way. Talk talk before going on our separate ways. 

Some one told me to prove him wrong, he said I can't survive without him. I told him I will prove him right, lol! But I guess yesterday we ended everything, so I guess I will be proving you wrong. Be good uh. I woke up damn early today because Hanis came over to my house, he was from cmpb, ordered pizza then he fall asleep till 3pm. Woke him up and got ready. He wanted to cut his hair. Accompanied him and he went off to work which will only ends at 11pm( usually 12++am) I can't wait for KL trip. Okay bye.

I am blogging thru my sister's itouch. I can't fucking sleep because I am hungry.I am so bored and got no idea what to dO. I gave chance, I lost hope, move on, impossible. Please figure out what I am trying to say here. It's 4.37am and no one is awake. Should force myself to sleep, night everyone

Hi I'm bored and I'm stuck at home with my mum. Everybody else is away from home. I'm having flu and it sucks big time. My mum bought for me a pair of earring from Geylang and I like it. I ate pizza hut which my mum ordered. Guess who delivered it to my house? Muhammad Hanis <3 He is ending work at 5pm, in awhile more baby. He has been working everyday for our KL trip which he some how always cancels the trip. Okay, I prangai la thats why he wants to cancel. Oh did I mention his mum got him an iphone 4? I want to steal that phone from him. I told H to bring me watch Repunzel, he don't want. He said I small kid, lol! Last-last, I watch in internet. The movie damn fucking nice la. H you better regret not watching Repunzel. ' Repunzel Repunzel let down your golden hair.' Okay, lame.

Results day is in 8 days, I hope my sister and I pass our N level. Lol, okay. I hope everyone will pass. KL trip is in 14 days. My brother's birthday is in 13 days. I am so broke. I can't wait for Monday because I will get some money! I just gave my sister $10 and she told me she will try not to use that $10. Ya right, probably she would have buy food with that $10. Wait till she reads this, hahaha. 

2010 is ending, and fuck 2010 like a lot. 2011 = a year older, lol! I will be 17 on April. H will be 20 next month. 

Rita why you born so slow? I want to change my blog and twitter background but I'm too lazy to lok for one. Yesterday my menses cramp was killing me and I made H send me home by bike, lol! Padahal my house beside his only sia. 

My mother is cooking now, she is not going to work today. I love my mother like a lot. I know, very random right? Where the hell is my sister? I think she can't walk after all the food she buys with my $10. 

Hi, I'm back. If you read my twitter you would know I wanted to update my blog yesterday but I went out early to meet Caca. H came later. Went to buy H's food at ktm. I swear that is the last time I am going to eat there, omg la. Wanted to go some where but there isn't any place -_- H stress alr, hahaha.

If you read my twitter, I would have wrote that we went to the cemetery by car. Went to like all the cemetery, inside car what so I not scared. Then the day before yesterday went to Muslim and Cristian cemetery by moto, quite scary eh the Cristian want. 

What am I suppose to update sia? Nb, my head blank -_-

Ohya, I'm going away with H and the rest. Confirm fun ttm, I so can't wait for it la. My results day coming alr and I am fucking scared ttm. I hope I can go up to sec 5. 17 dec why you come so fast!!!!???? Oh and I got a blackberry phone, and will get a iphone 4 soon. Okay, Rita tkmo prasan. lol. But serious uh. 

Okay so, who am I with now? Go figure it out. Whaaaaaaaaaat theeeeeeeee fuuuuuuuuuuuuck am I suppose to blog about? Oh and uh! I went to food at ktm yesterday, today I keep shitting sial. Cb, never ever eat at ktm ever again. Even if I was dying of hunger. 

I need to go meet Caca now. Update some other time okay? Byeeee!

My life isn't getting any better. I did not get my iphone 4 because it is out of stock in the whole Singapore and not even one knows when it will be restock. And no fucking reservations. My bill is a bomb, forever fucking high. Everyone knows that N is with him and NOT me with him, I am like the most stupidest girl ever. My life is always fucked up. One after another. What else do you want from me? Enough of making me the most stupidest girl, the most dumbest girl ever. You won okay? I gave up, you won this time round. Go to her, I am not a good girl for you alr. 

Wtf, I want to forget about everything that is happening. I am soooo god damn tired of everything. You did it again and again. And I believe again and again. What are you trying to do sia bibi? 

I am going out to get my iphone 4, hopefully my mum buys it for me. Bibi is coming along and he wants me to share my iphone 4 with him. Heh heh. I woke up very early today, like 7+am and I slept at 3+am yesterday. Now I am sooooo sleepy but iphone peh pasal sanggop stay awake.

Do you know that when a boy breaks a girl's heart, it's much, much, much more than you know it affected her? That her tears are not only to show how much it hurt but to at least try to blur out the world so she can forget? That she thinks every sleeping and waking moment what the hell did she did wrong? That when she looks at the photos of you with her, she tries to tear it but can't because they're very beautiful memories to keep? That she can't throw away the gifts and carefully preserved chocolate you gave her because you gave it to her? That whenever she thinks of the "I love you" words you told her, she mutters "I love you, too" but realizes she can't say it anymore? That it's like the whole world tumbling before her very eyes? NO. You don't know what it feels like. You don't know how it feels to be cheated, to be left, to be fooled. And it's taken very seriously because, once a girl loves, a girl really loves.

I want my bibi to read this.

I am so bored that is why I am updating again. What the fuck am I suppose to write? I am so hungry that I can eat my fingers off -_- I don't know what to eat also. My baby is working and it will only ends at 11pm. Which will confirm be extended to 12++ am. Sorry uh my English hancur, I lazy want to use proper English. My results will be out next month and I am not scared, lol. What am I suppose to write now? I want to highlight my hair but I don't know what color. Maybe not doing because want to next year alr. 

When I have kids in future, I want to tell my kids what baby did to me and what I did to him, lol. Confirm my kids think we bad. Jahat jahat pon tetap loving couple, right bi? I want a baby boy then a baby girl. So my baby boy can look after my baby girl. Okay why am I even talking about babies? 

Zomg, I am sooooooooo bored. My mum went to buy food. I'm having mac for dinner because I don't know what to eat alr. I want to go Europe now, but I am broke. I fucking don't have cash with me till next week. Now is like what? Wednesday? How long do I have to wait? 123456789 days. With no cash on you it is really depressing. Now I got mood to update blog but when I am busy my blog will be dead again. I love going out at night because the weather is awesome. Afternoon= freaking hot sun. Now I forced myself to bed at 12am but will only fall asleep at 3+am, pathetic bitch. 

There is this girl in my school who is fights with her boyfriend thru fb. Aww, so cute~ NOT. She will say bitch is a dog, dog bark, bark from tress and don't know what lame things she will say. And her language is like this. Qau taqmo plangai doq la whey, naq iqot aqu bbl. Something like that. I think I take like don't know how many minutes to read her unreadable-ridiculous-childish sentence. 

Long enough anot my post???? don't complain uh I tell you. This post will last you for how many weeks before my next update okay? Okay bye I love you bi.

Sorry for not updating this blog for a long time. Prom night was fun except that I was freezing inside, prom queen and prom king were awesome. Everything ended at 11pm, my baby drove me home. Some day ago, me, baby, Caca and her boyfriend went for karaoke at Cinie. My baby got hidden voice, lol. Then some day ago again we went riding with the rest, we went to a cemetery. I don't know what cemetery it is. Fucking scary ttm. The whole time I was looking at baby's helmet, lol. Oh and Tanjong Rhu the place so nice want you know you know. Now I have been staying at home ever since he is working, I am so bored that I can just jump out of my window. Okay lame. I am also broke at the same time. I want to work but I am so lazy to work. I am getting an Iphone 4  on Thursday. I am the most happiest little girl on Earth. My baby is getting his next month, why wait next month when I can get on Thursday? I can't upload prom pictures and I don't know why. When I got the mood to update my blog, my blog buat hal. nbcb.

I am bored like fuck. There is only my sister and me at home. Baby please bring me out. Okay bye love you.

To the bitch,

I FUCKING HATE YOU, YOU  FUCKER. I DON'T NEED YOUR GUY LA. I HAVE MY OWN. LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING OKAY BITCH? YOU LOVE HIM RIGHT? YOU TRUST HIM RIGHT? GO AHEAD LA FUCK. YOU THINK HE WON'T DO IT AGAIN RIGHT? HE JUST DID IT AGAIN TO ME LA FUCK. AND BTW, YOU ARE NOTHING TO HIM KAY ANOT. YOU FALL FOR HIS SWEET WORDS, I AM NOT GOING TO FALL FOR IT. GO AND USE YOUR FUCKING BRAIN LA. WHY WANT TO INSULT ME AT HANIS? YOU GOT MY NUMBER WHAT. COME INSULT ME LA FUCK. NBCB FUCK ASS. EH YOU GO DIE ALSO GOOD LA. 

Girls stop impressing you when you're flirtin' with other girls.
Girls stop caring about you when you don't even give a fxck care about them.
Girls move on from you when she realised that you're treating her like shit.
& when she finds the right guy that cares and loves her for who she is, that's the time you're gonna realised that she's the one you need all along.

It is happening now.

I lazy want to update my blog now because I am very sleepy now. Left over pictures are up there. Went out with the best people of my life. I made V disappointed. H's girl firiend is a fucker and I hate her. Nb. I don't want him la, you go take him la because I'm not desperate like you whore. I finally bought my prom dress. Prom night is in 3 days. The 17th is in 2 days. I really hope Next year will be a better year because I fucked things up this year. I am still deciding if I should take this chance because you might just do it again. You can't ensure me you won't, right? Short post for now okay? I am seriously sleepy like fuck.