Thursday, December 30, 2010

Hanis- the best.
Vinod- awesome friend ever.
Anita- best twin sister ever.
Elina- A counselor.
Kailin- ahlian.
Rosaline.
Muz.

Pictures is still not up but still I want to update something before New year's eve. 2010 has been a hard time with school, family, friends and love. 

I have to say that this year I behaved myself in school and was praised for my good attitude. But sadly to say it did not reflect on my N level. I am disappointed in myself but H always says that I'm smart. Obviously, I'm smarter then him but I don't want to be smarter then him. I want to be smarted then the smartest. Okay, expectation to high, lol! Whatever it is, he never looks down on me and I am not going to give up just like that. I'm going in ite and taking a course together with my best twin sister, then to higher nitec with another course then to poly. H did not want me to attend ite because he is scared, but I'm not going to fool around in ite. I hate ite god damn a lot. Easy to say, things never happen the way I want, never.

I lost a few friends. Might be my fault or the other way but it's okay. I made new friends and gain experience. For that I love my friends because they stayed by me eventho I made the wrong choice. They never gave up on me. Love you all.

Love- I tot everything was going smoothly until the very last. I saw what I did not want to see. I hear what I did not expect to hear. I was treated the way I never tot he will treat me. Say it was a 3year relationship  but to me it is only 2year relationship because the last year you cheated me from the begging. Never I had expected it to be this way, serious. In the end, I forgave you but I am never going to look at you the same way. 

2011 resolution- The day after tomorrow I will lost a friend. A friend who I can do anything. Who I learned many things. Who taught me to moved on but I never will. I loved him but it will never happen because both of us know I can't forget H. V was very nice, really. I always wanted to be treated that way. He never did scold me eventho I was wrong. But some how I need to let him go. He is getting married soon. I'll wish him all the best in future till we meet again. You're forever in my heart. The day after tomorrow there won't be any text/calls from him. On 2011, I would vow to be a good girl and stick to one eventho I might get busted again. I vow to study hard in ite and not be a bad girl. I vow not to do bad things when I enter ite. I promised V that I will change and I will. Watch me change people.

Might not go anywhere for countdown as H is working but he says if he has the time he might bring me out. 

Till here.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE 

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