Give me a blade, don't worry I'll survive.

Sorry if this post is so emo shit.

I seriously don't have mood sia. Want after another problem come. Fuck the contractor who disturb my nap. Fuck you real hard kay anot? You not happy isn't if I sleep in the afternoon? Must make so much noise want uh?

Want to do your work, do quietly la, don't know I tired uh? Cb la you.

My mum have been scolding me day and night, super irritating okay anot. I know la what I'm doing, I'm your daughter also you don't want to trust is it? You rather trust others uh? I know la I'm not like kakak. We may be twins but I don't need to do what she does kay anot. You scold me everyday you not tired uh? I tired hearing you nag all day long. What you want from me actually uh?

You go throw your phone in the longkang near your house sudah. Message don't want to reply, have hand phone also no use la. You also another one, what you actually want uh? No no, you tell me seriously. I very tired of this thing kay anot. I got scolding for no reason. It's the past what, you cannot just forget about it uh? What you want me to do? You tell me la.

Give me a blade, don't worry I'll survive. I promise I won't do anything bad. Just give me one day, all I need is the blade and me to be alone. After the day is gone, I'm not going to turn back to the past, I promise. I'll be fine, just like you always thought. I'll be the best girl you ever wanted. Because now, it's not you it's me who is having problems. Can't you see I'm going through a hard time? Can't you see I'm really trying very hard. Why can't you understand that it is hard for me? Kill me or hit me somebody because to be honest I rather been hurt physically then having my heart broken. I'm just a 16 year old girl and have to go through all this shit, tak kesian pe korang? Because I kesian myself for having to go through this all alone and the worst part is, you have to do it all alone. 

Bye