Feel it

Two years ago I was in love, now I'm out of love. Guess how I'm feeling now? It's like a fuck up feeling, it might not be for you. Duh, it won't, never had, and will never be. You throw girls around like a piece of shit, and I was one of them. Those hard tries of avoiding the whole universe to have you to myself is seriously not worth it. Those on and off we had after the Aza's incident was never going to end. Those second chances was only temporary because I'm still all alone at the end of the day. Tried to be better but you were the one who fucked everything up. Yes, was my fault with that Aza's thing but few months ago you did what I was doing, if only I reacted how you reacted now, I think I would not been abused by your hands. But I guess it was too late, we moved on. I forgive and forget, now it's my turn. Walking away as soon as you found out. At least I got the courage to own up my mistakes, did you even have the balls to tell me? No, I found out myself.  You feel guilty don't you? Er, maybe no. You were bored you did that. Same reason as me, I was bored too. Did I call you names? No, I did not. Did you call me names? Yes, you did. Are you not going to forgive and forget like how I did few months back? You think it was easy for me? I tried, at least I did. I bet you did not. Who would ever thought it will end this way? Hah, I became good for you. But you think it's worth it? Because all my effort went to down the drain and your second chance was only meant for a temporary while. You know it yourself why, and I was dumb enough, dumb enough to give in.