Sucks.

First day of school sucks. I had 3 hours or less then that of sleep. I hate the time before going to bed, everything keeps playing in my head like fuck. I want to move on but every night my brain torture me, how? It's 8.09pm and I manage not to contact him. I did had the urge to text him but when I think how happy he is with that girl, I told myself leave them alone. I'm a loser at relationship, really.

Waking up in the morning for school is not a torture, staying awake till 3.30pm is a torture. My sister and I are not in the same class, which sucks too. I made friend with a girl but she is in my sister's class, that sucks too. Oh, she's a twin btw. The younger one, me too. So nice to communicate to a twin because she knows how irritating it is when people ask if you are a twin. Isn't it obvious, you blind fuck? I don't want to make friends with the people in my class because they are all so kental. I want to be anti-social like Kailin. I hate my class but I love my CA because she's a Caucasian. I will be an anti-social girl for two years and not make friends with the people in my class.  My first day in school is a nightmare, I might just drop out. No, I won't. Saw a few familiar faces but I got no mood to talk to them. School so big but I can't be bother with the people there. I can't wait to deep in the school pool during PE. I love to swim.

Tomorrow is the second day of school and it is still orientation. Sucks to be a newbie. Need to wear white polo tee but there isn't any size. I hack care, I'm wearing what I wore to school just now. I want to sleep early so I can wake up tomorrow. I'll get a picture of myself in my uniform, see how small am I in it.

Bye.