Welcome to school of hell

School has already started and new timetable been given out. There will be a lot of practical, like really a lot practical. School will be ending at 6.30pm and 7.30pm for Thursday. I only have Friday which ends at 9.30am, if it means not doing service on that day. Not forgetting 30mins break each day, which school will end super late. So being me, I am going to bring a lot food in my bag and eat in class, hehe! I'm sure going to suffer this 3 months but I will and have to endure.

There isn't school today because it is suppose to be service day but we haven't done our grooming check, so she  cancel school today. So rare to let my teacher cancel school just like that, gonna make use of the time at home. 

Won't be updating this blog that much since school will be occupying most of my time. Follow me on twitter, I'm always active there.

People don't just forget, they were forced to stop caring. I use to not mind sharing my boyfriend, all I want was to keep him. If all we did was fighting and if I can't make you happy what's the point of keeping you? They say, 'if you feel like giving up, think what held you for so long.' But if giving up is the only choice I have, what should I do? When giving up, the things we had or do in the past will not matter. All this while you tried pushing me away, I thought it was my fault, not knowing you already had another girl. It took me long enough to realize that I no longer could make you happy despite the sacrifices I made for you. Took me long enough that some one else took over my place in your heart and took me long enough to realize you no longer belongs to me but some one else. Some one told me not to blame others but myself.  So maybe it was my fault that you had to find some one else, maybe I bore you, maybe I wasn't good enough for you. 

I  want to stop contacting you not because I don't love nor care for you anymore. In fact I'll always love  you no matter what happens and who you belong to. It's because I don't want to be the third party in your relationship. I don't want you to make the same mistakes, I don't want her to leaves you because of the mistakes you make. I don't want you to feel sad and I want her to make you happy. They say, 'once a liar, always a liar.' But I believe you will change, not now but one day you will. 


I am happy that you found some one you love, I use to be angry and everything but not anymore. Now I hope you would last long with her and not hurt her in any ways. I'll give you my blessings sincerely. Now I understand when they say, 'true love is letting them be happy with or without you.' 

Sincerely For Hanis